Well first off this week has been a roller coaster. To put it nicely. Some of which you guys could see with my writing and lack of writing. That I hope to change going forward now that things are less chaotic mentally.
So why do I include a journal type aspect to what is obviously more about being an author? That is simple. With the challenges I have day to day it impacts my writing on many levels. Let us use emotion for example. Emotions are not always logic based AT ALL lol. With where I land mental health wise with some aspects I am a very logical person. Which is probably why I have such detailed character bios lol. However I know what emotion they are feeling and how they are reacting but how to convey it can be the most difficult part of a chapter from time to time. Such as how do you describe joyful in words that will show it on the character’s face and body language? So for me, these are one and the same journey. Writing part of who I am, not a job but a passion and an area I struggle with at times.
This week has not been helpful in that regard. Between the anniversary of loosing my daughter, the migraines which are hell, and then the glucose roller coaster from hell yesterday it has been a wild week. At least I know why my sugars are bouncing like crazy lol they started doing that the same day I got bloodwork so I know my body is fighting something and that can really do a number on ya. Especially when you suffer from migraines.
I have had more days with a migraine then not this week. One is due to season change which just messes with my head in such painful ways and my body. However when my sugars get to high or low it can trigger a migraine. My migraines are actually why we discovered I have glucose issues that they really do not know what to call. I have an aunt who like me is passionate about medicine. She suggested that with my migraines when I went in to get my sugars checked. Was the first known trigger discovered since I had my first diagnosed migraine at three years of age. I won’t forget that day because they had to use three different meters and have the lab draw blood before they could believe how low I was. I had issues believing it as well cause the level I was at is usually organs shutting down time.
Yea watching nurses run it is nerve-racking to most and should be. It does mean something isn’t quite good and speed is needed over calm which is a very vital part of medicine. Knowing this though just made me tip my head to the side, and get curious as to the next steps. This was also the day my service dog’s actions at times finally made sense. She was never trained to detect glucose imbalances yet she was and she was alerting to them to. It is a good thing because I am hypoglycemia unaware… aka rarely do I get symptoms when I am low. Eventually by accident we discovered a medication that does make it so I get symptoms however getting coverage for it is not so easy because it is not a common or even known use of this medication.
So once again here I am online with a migraine and typing away. Simply because yea it may make the pain worse however I do not focus on it so it is easier in a way to manage. This one though I am hoping will settle faster then usual as it probably is a result of trying to get my glucose to get stable instead of making it’s own roller coaster track. However writing with a migraine can make pulling details from previous chapters forward hard as well. I do not plan on stopping though. Unless I am asleep most of the day I am gonna be doing something because you work with the hand you are dealt. That simple.
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